Blaming will not heal your heart.
Depression to me is often that elephant in the room that holds its awkward presence just waiting for the right moment to come out of the shadows.
Everyone knows it’s there but it’s never addressed because it’s still a topic full of stigma in so many ways.
Although, most people who know me know that I struggle with my mental health they may not know what set things into motion for me initially. What caused the huge fall into brokenness. Today, that is not what I wish to highlight– I don’t think that my fall into the broken mental state says much about who I am.
I’m looking to do something more with these broken pieces– I want to take these broken parts of me that are often recognized as weakness and show you how they have become a place to find strength.
When I originally recognized my depressive thinking for what it was my freshman year of high school. I like many others began to look for something or someone to blame for my feelings.
We all want to know why we are depressed. It’s the million dollar question. When trying to come up with answers it’s basically like picking up a dollar here and there wishing that we could find more–wishing it completed the full explanation of why we feel the way we do. In our minds, we think that maybe, just maybe then it will make sense to others.
But, as I have come to find out all of the answers or reasons in the world don’t make up the full reason.
And quite frankly, sometimes the reasons we are looking for, end up causing more harm than good.
Blame and grudges are often brought forth in the search for the reason why. As a result, brokenness can become an ugly thing full of hatred and unforgiveness.
But the only one that can make us whole tells us again and again that we should always forgive and that we should not hold grudges. That means that we should love people. Even people who hurt us.
We all will face suffering in this life but we are called to ways higher than grudge holding and gossip.
According to 1 Peter 4:19: So then, those who suffer according to God’s will should commit themselves to their faithful Creator and continue to do good.
Find beauty in God’s blessing and find strength in brokenness… not blame in brokenness.
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