Navigating through life’s tough spots.
This week I have been sick. When it started it was merely physical. It was the body aches, fever, and chills. I can’t pinpoint when, but at some point, my sickness didn’t just affect my body but it had an effect on my brain too.
I’m not just sick, I’m also worn out.
I’m worn out from being a full-time college student.
I’m worn out from being a full-time employee.
I’m worn out from fighting an internal battle with myself every day.
I’m usually the type that handles all of my responsibilities well, so I never really realized how hectic my life had become until I got sick and realized that I didn’t have any time to recover.
I knew two things to be true.
I had to go to work and I had to go to school… and that’s 7 out of 7 days.
If I don’t have time to recover from a sickness because I’m so overwhelmed by my responsibilities– what else am I truly lacking time for?
As soon as I asked myself this. The answer became unmistakable to me. I wasn’t giving myself much time to just be in God’s presence.
I wasn’t resting in Him.
Leaving me tired and worn out.
I’ve let my life become like a video game. Full of checkpoints. I’m just trying to reach the next one.
How can I chase my success? How do I get to that next high point of my life? How do I do all of this and keep my sanity?
If I’m being honest, I’m not doing such a good job right now. Lately, I have had more dark days, than light days. I’ve spent more days enveloped in depression than cushioned by the joy that only He can give.
If like me you are sick and tired… of being sick and tired–it may be time for a change in focus.